I have found myself ugly crying before God on many occasions. You know… the kind of cry that comes up from your soul. The kind of cry that you wouldn’t want anyone except God seeing. You have been there at some point in your life, I’m sure. I’ve actually apologized to God for being such an ugly crier. And then started laughing at myself for being so ridiculous. He must find us so humorous and wonderfully silly sometimes. Because despite our human bodies and nature of this world, God has it all in His hands and completely under control. We can wail and weep and be in despair (and this is a healthy response if not made into a way of life), but God is ultimately hoping we will have faith and complete trust in Him.
Where do my stories come from? From everyday experiences that I know others have been through too. From the Spirit – truth be told. They are from the depths of despair all the way to great joy. They are from experiences God planned out for me; though painful sometimes, they have matured me beyond my years and strengthened my faith. It is a calling to share them.
What do I do with my pain, my experiences, my daily life? I compliment someone who looks like they’ve lost their best friend. I pay for the meal of the person behind me in the line at the drive-through restaurant. I pray deeply for others. I give cards of encouragement. I post spiritual thoughts. I give money to those in need. I give tirelessly to my children. I forgive. I “let my light shine so that they may see His good works and glorify our Father.” (And I share this ONLY to inspire you in Christ and never to boast.) These, and many more things, amaze me every time – I’m humbled and lifted up at the same time. I feel power in Christ and know He is using me for His glory. I stop ugly crying and start feeling empowered and at peace.
Hoping this finds you empowered and at peace,
“You have collected all my tears in your bottle.” Psalm 56:8